The man i fell inlove with died friday night. he was everytthing. my protector. my heart. my soul he was the kindest. sweetest. man. he was truely the only one i could fully trust my with all my soul, the man who incourage me to do things i  would not even dare to do. the man who told me to open my heart and love again.  Died. I love you Micheal.

he was cleanin his gutters out of his house thrusday morning and fell off the roof.  i talked to him that night and morning after he got home from the hospital and he was okay, from what he told me, but he talk to his friend to take him to the hospital friday night and he pass away with interal bleeding in his brain.

I love you Micheal. You are forever and EVER in my heart. and my soul.

Well lets see,

im getting sick again, its startin to suck to always be sick, the bloodly noses, the cant stand, the coughting, I feel helpless but whatever.

I am still single, i guess its for the better. I do have someone im interested in but at lastwhy does he have to live so far from me. His smile, his laugh his touch is EVERYTHING i ever wanted. but when you live in worlds apart it sucks,


well work is goin okay i guess. i have been doing so much of it I have not had time to really do anything else, no goin out. no drinking no friends oh well. This friday we are goin out to the country club here to do some dancin I guess that will be fun,

well thats enough for right now i cant really think,